I haven’t wrote in forever. I guess life has been a little crazy.
So first I still haven’t won a Dental contest. I’m hopeful though and not giving up. I want and need this more than anything. I just want to laugh, smile and love myself again. Here’s to hoping 2018 will be my year.
I wrecked my car not once but twice. The first time was my fault. I rear ended someone driving a red camaro. I scratched their bumper but hurt my car more. My wonderful mechanic of a husband fixed my car and she looked great again. That same day (6pm) I was in another accident. This time a blue camaro ran a red light and well my car wouldn’t drive away. They (blue camaro) did a hit and run and their car was totaled as all air bags deployed. He came back to the scene an hour later and all info he provided on the police report was fake/wrong and the car and insurance wasn’t his. So my insurance had to cover whatever happens. So 👎🏻 to this but my daughter and I are okay so right now that’s what matters most. Just got the call that my car is totaled! 😭 It’s a sad day. I loved that car.
My oldest son Cam has been kicking ass at powerlifting. He’s been digging deeper every single time and his weight/goals are outstanding. I couldn’t be more proud. Also he earned a spot in regionals 💪🏻. #keepgoing
My dad had a triple bypass yesterday. He has a long road ahead of him. His first night was really rough, but the nurse this morning said he was doing better. So we will just take this one day by day and see what happens. Keep him in your thoughts.
My other kids are doing fabulous. My youngest daughter wants to do gymnastics so I’m looking into that. My oldest daughter starts softball on Monday and my other son starts track. So powerlifting, softball, possible t-ball or gymnastics and of course track with a chance of soccer thrown in. Sports mom at its finest, but I wouldn’t have it any other way.
Oh and my husband went on his own and started his own business which has been doing amazingly well. Thank you universe.
We’ve been doing pretty good this year, besides the few boulders that have been thrown in during he month of February. 🖤
So by now we know that WORDS have a tendency to captivate people. They either grab ahold of them and tug at all the things that mean something to them, or the words are bland which means no one reads your stories, words, inspirational posts, business things,etc.
so tell me a few of your favorite words?? Attention grabbers that pull you in and don’t let go? Most people like truth and the reality that we’re actually normal people who have struggles, faults and when we succeed. So authenticity plays a huge role here. Being YOU is what brings people out into your world.
What words inspire or encourage you?
What gets you going during the day?
What motivates you?
WHY do you do what you do every single day?
Do you ever feel like you lost yourself along the way?
What do you do for ME time?
Where do you see yourself in 5 years from now?
What are your small goals?
Any specific dreams that you want to badly you can taste it?
Starting out 2017 with a goal I’ve had for a few years now.
It’s 2017. A year for fresh starts, new beginnings and those so called resolutions we strive for every year. I’m sure most of us make it the first month and we fall off track shortly after that. It doesn’t mean you or me are failures, it means we need to dig a little deeper and find our inner strength to pull us through. But do we really need resolutions? I mean we should strive for better all year. Exercise more, quit smoking, find a better job, get rid of the toxic people and attitudes that weight us down, lose weight, plan more,etc. The list goes on and on. I do have “resolutions” so to speak, but I would rather call them game changers. I spent last year extremely depressed. I let things from my childhood, my past and my present swallow me whole. I was consumed by darkness and I barely saw any light to keep me from drowning. My life at home is great. I have four amazing kids, and a husband who works his ass off to make sure every one of us is taken care of. The bills are on his plate as well. He worked a full-time job as a mechanic Monday thru Friday and everyday including the weekend he would pull in side work to bring in more money. He would also find time to attend the kids sporting events as well. We chose to change jobs for him before the 2016 year was up and boy its still scary as hell. He left a job that became stagnant with the same pay and same crap with an added title, to a new job and he smiles so much more. So back to me. I tend to hold on to things way to much. This year my goal is to change that. I started using a planner which has been great so far. I write all of my to-dos, want to dos and what has to be done. Motivational quotes, pictures, and any goals I have for the year. I re-did my dream board which had been the same for a few years. Some things I left alone, because I still want or need to do them. I think the dream board brings what you want to life. It gives you a vision you can always see which gives you that motivation to work that much harder. My mind tends to run a thousand miles an hour and still tries to go when I lay down for bed. It’s usually the bad thoughts that get me off track. I’ve been doing okay so far though and my mind and body seem to be in a great place. I’ve always struggled with letting go. I hold on to everything. It could have happened 15 years ago and I will still talk about it. I don’t need or want that kind of behavior surrounding my life. How do you handle depression? Any advice to give me? How did you learn to let go? Also if there’s something you really want, but can’t have it because the cost is to extreme how do you not let that eat you up as well? I’m NOT talking about a new house, a new car, needing a new wardrobe, or shoes, or a fancy vacation (although that would be great.) I’ll take a trip to the beach please! I should add my nanny passed away in March and it gets to me all the time. I didn’t get to drive to see her before she passed. She was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer and it took her quickly. I MISS her so much.
My teeth are my downfall. Yeah, I know that’s nasty. I’ve had problems since I was 19 (after my first kid) and now many years later my teeth have deteriorated. I don’t look in the mirror and like what I see. I’m rather disgusted with myself. I cry a ton and slip into a depression when I think about it or if I’m randomly eating a soft food I can handle and one of my teeth will break. I avoid talking to people. I’ve mastered speaking with my head down, covering my mouth or I might not respond at all. People say they never notice, but come on I know YOU notice. The smile is one of the first things we see. I am jealous over so many peoples smiles, straight teeth, the laughter they share, and the photos they’re able to take. I rarely photos and if I do you won’t see my teeth. I’ve been entering dental contests for over four years now and still no luck. One that just ended was the closest I had been. I was a candidate in the top 10, but the others nor myself got picked because we didn’t have the “marketing” experience to back their brand. I guess that’s understandable, but when you give someone like me something I’ve wanted for so long…I can guarantee your brand will be bragged on to every person I know. It didn’t happen though. 2017 is a new year with new possibilities so I’m hoping that this will be my year even if it takes me till the end of it to save up. And if you’re wondering, no none of my teeth can be saved. Several are missing, broken, or have been pulled. I’ve wrote to people like “The Doctors” and “Ellen” in hopes of someone helping me. It’s on me though. I will have my smile one day and I’ll be sure to post it here first. ***If you want to know Dr. Golpa offers an all on four implant. I want this so bad. They have a special right now, which I guess really isn’t a special when you barely make the price tag a year. In a few months the cost rises which stinks. Maybe I’ll win the lottery or find another solution that will look just a good. If you read this far…Yay!
So tell me what do you plan on doing differently this year? What or who is your motivation? What plan do you have in place to make it happen? If there is one thing you could have in life what would it be? Mine is a new smile. So tell me about you if you want. Lend me advice or just vent. I’m open to anything… -Danna