It’s been a while…

I haven’t wrote in forever. I guess life has been a little crazy.

So first I still haven’t won a Dental contest. I’m hopeful though and not giving up. I want and need this more than anything. I just want to laugh, smile and love myself again. Here’s to hoping 2018 will be my year.

I wrecked my car not once but twice. The first time was my fault. I rear ended someone driving a red camaro. I scratched their bumper but hurt my car more. My wonderful mechanic of a husband fixed my car and she looked great again. That same day (6pm) I was in another accident. This time a blue camaro ran a red light and well my car wouldn’t drive away. They (blue camaro) did a hit and run and their car was totaled as all air bags deployed. He came back to the scene an hour later and all info he provided on the police report was fake/wrong and the car and insurance wasn’t his. So my insurance had to cover whatever happens. So πŸ‘ŽπŸ» to this but my daughter and I are okay so right now that’s what matters most. Just got the call that my car is totaled! 😭 It’s a sad day. I loved that car.

My oldest son Cam has been kicking ass at powerlifting. He’s been digging deeper every single time and his weight/goals are outstanding. I couldn’t be more proud. Also he earned a spot in regionals πŸ’ͺ🏻. #keepgoing

My dad had a triple bypass yesterday. He has a long road ahead of him. His first night was really rough, but the nurse this morning said he was doing better. So we will just take this one day by day and see what happens. Keep him in your thoughts.

My other kids are doing fabulous. My youngest daughter wants to do gymnastics so I’m looking into that. My oldest daughter starts softball on Monday and my other son starts track. So powerlifting, softball, possible t-ball or gymnastics and of course track with a chance of soccer thrown in. Sports mom at its finest, but I wouldn’t have it any other way.

Oh and my husband went on his own and started his own business which has been doing amazingly well. Thank you universe.

We’ve been doing pretty good this year, besides the few boulders that have been thrown in during he month of February. πŸ–€


Trying to stand tallΒ 

Sometimes all we need is a new perspective. πŸ–€

Life has been crazy lately. It’s hard not to stay in bed and hope the problems disappear. It’s hard to push depression away. But then there is happiness and you find the moments that make it all worth it. 

A co-worker of my husbands was killed. He was a tow truck driver and on a call on the side of the highway, well a mini van a woman was driving decided to still drive 75 miles an hour and she hit him and he died. I’ll spare the details as I can barely stand to think of them. He was a great man and he will always be remembered. He left a family behind, but everyone is taking care of them. 

My first week back at school went pretty good. I’m shooting to get my GPA back up, I need to apply for a few scholarships and hope I can get a few of them in my favor. So far my classes are going great and I’m really enjoying them. It’s nice to be on a different path. 

Mother’s Day was good. I spent the whole weekend with my kids and I got to spend Sunday with my husband as well. He works a ton so it’s hard to see him. We also went and had a family breakfast which was okay. I was frustrated because the place charged more money because of the holiday and yet couldn’t keep up with food. 

I woke up with an abscess today. This time it’s on the top part of my mouth and putting crazy pressure on my face. My lip, nose and cheeks are swollen and the head pain is crazy. I’m on an antibiotic again as there’s not much else to do. The dentist I started going to is booked up, so I settled at seeing a new one just to get meds that way I wouldn’t have to be hospitalized by morning. I’ll admit though I’m scared shitless. I don’t want to die. I have to much to live for. My kids and my husband are my world. I want to live. I don’t know how to fix my mouth though without the funds to do so. I found another dental contest to enter but like all of the other ones it’s a waiting game and usually my mouth is more than most want to handle. Ive spent all day searching for other contests, dental offices that accept payment plans or someone willing to help, but as usual I come up empty handed. It’s hard not to give up as I know the cost of fixing my mouth is much more than I can even come up with. The things that keep me holding on are my kids, I want to watch them grow up and achieve all of their dreams and growing old with my husband is something I want more than anything. So I’m hoping for a miracle or something that says my health will get better and it will be alright again. 

✌🏻 I’ll be back to write again soon. It felt good to get my thoughts out there. Oh and I need to start writing again, I miss it. I have been reading quite a bit which is great. 

What are some of your favorite words?Β 

So by now we know that WORDS have a tendency to captivate people. They either grab ahold of them and tug at all the things that mean something to them, or the words are bland which means no one reads your stories, words, inspirational posts, business things,etc. 

so tell me a few of your favorite words?? Attention grabbers that pull you in and don’t let go? Most people like truth and the reality that we’re actually normal people who have struggles, faults and when we succeed. So authenticity plays a huge role here. Being YOU is what brings people out into your world. 

What words inspire or encourage you?

What gets you going during the day? 

What motivates you? 

WHY do you do what you do every single day? 

Do you ever feel like you lost yourself along the way?

What do you do for ME time? 

Where do you see yourself in 5 years from now? 

What are your small goals?

Big goals?

Any specific dreams that you want to badly you can taste it?